Vad jag vill ha

Visserligen är utseende en bra sak. Inget att klaga över. Men detta är vad jag letar efter i varje kille jag träffar.

Och så inser jag att blogger gör bilden så liten att ingen kan läsa den :/ Nåväl, här är vad det står på den:

I want a guy...

who would move away the hair from my eyes and then kiss me.

holding hands

in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous.

Someone who would sing to me at random moments.

Who whould let me sleep on their chests.

A boy who would get mad at someone if the called me

ugly or was mean to me.

I want someone who would call me 3

times a day if he went away.

Someone who would let me gossip to him

and would just smile and agree with everything I said.

He would throw stuffed animals

at me when I acted dumb and then

kiss me a million times.

Someone who would make fun of me

just to make me laugh.

He would take me to the park and

put his hands around my waist and

give me big bear hugs all the time.

He would tell all his friends about

me and smile when he did it.

And we'd make out in the pouring rain.

He would never be afraid to say "I love you"

in front of his friends,

and we'd argue about silly things and then make up.

I want a boy that would kiss me at midnight on

New Years and count stars with me.

Who would stay home with me on a Friday

night just to help me make dinner & watch

movies together under the same blanket

Someone who would tell me I'm beautiful but not too often,

who would make me laugh like no one else could.

But mostly, I want someone who would be

my best friend and would never break my heart.

Du finns. Det räcker.

Jag har bestämt mig för att jag vill blogga på svenska. Så många av mina kompisar gör det och av någon anledning började det kännas mer naturligt att skriva på svenska. Antar att det är för att jag inte är tvungen att använda engelska lika ofta numera. Så jag jobbar på att konvertera hela bloggen till svenska. Det lär ta ett tag :P

Nåväl jag vill prata stress idag. Redan folk som börjar bli stressade inför nästa tenta som vi har om fyra veckor. Jag känner mig både rastlös och skyldig över att ha så lite att göra, i tre år hade jag liksom inget annat att göra än att plugga. Nu har jag ett ämne som jag dessutom har väldigt lätt för (folk kommer slå mig för det där, felååååt!)

Hursomhelst, jag vet hur det känns att vara helt sönderstressad. Var det ofta i början av gymnasiet då jag hade noll studieteknik och allting bara lades på hög och gjorde mig helt galen. Men sen lyckades jag ordna upp det och sen dess har jag skattat mig lycklig för alla dessa lugna meditativa tillfällen som jag unnar mig själv, numera går det automatiskt. Men varje gång jag har lite tid över så kan jag stänga av hjärnaktiviteten och bara slappna av. Bara känna inombords att "jag existerar och jag är tillfreds med det."

Utomhus:

• Om det är varmt eller någorlunda behagligt. Ligg ner på gräs och bara titta upp på himlen. Slappna av och blunda eller titta på molnen. Tänk inte. Bara titta. Stäng av allting och bara ligg där.

• Sitt på en gunga. Tårna i marken och sakta gunga lite fram och tillbaka. Bara halvhäng där lutad mot ena kedjan. Ha inte blick fäst på något och slappna av så mycket som möjligt.

• Promenera. Titta upp mot himlen. Funkar bäst en stjärnklar kväll då man kan gå och bara titta på stjärnorna hur länge som helst.

Inomhus:

• Instrumental musik på vilken volym du nu föredrar. Ligg ovanpå sängen eller bara rätt uppochner på golvet (golv kan vara mycket bekväma). Titta upp i taket (man kan lära sig många saker om tak) och bara stäng av allt tänkande. Slappna av. Tänk inte på något. Du finns. Det räcker.

• Gör någonting du kan göra utan att tänka för mycket. T ex småklinka på en gitarr utan något särskilt mål med det. Kladda randomly på ett papper. Skissa. Gör helt enkelt någonting du är tillfreds med. Läsa fungerar men då arbetar hjärnan ändå. TV funkar.

Numera kan jag få de här avslappnade tillfällen så fort jag sitter eller ligger (eller står om jag lyssnar på bra musik). Åker buss, tittar ut genom fönstret, musik i öronen, all hjärnaktivitet totalt avstängd. Promenad, tittar ner i marken, nynnar för mig själv, all hjärnaktivitet borta. Jag kan helt enkelt bara sitta ner och finnas där. Punkt. Inget mer behövs.

Vaccine

So...

Now I'm immune against the Flu. With a big F since when anyone is talking about flu these days it's about the new flu. So flu automatically means the Flu now :P

Didn't hurt a bit. No effects now either. My sister says I'll get them later, but I don't think so. My arm feels completely normal. :) The scariest thing that happened was that my arm went numb for a minute after the shot otherwise nothing special.

After the shot I felt I deserved a treat so I went and bought some chocolate :)

And all I'll do tonight is probably studying :/ Cheers!

2 bra låtar

Avril Lavigne - Iris (live)


Simple Plan - Grow Up

This is a relief

I'm back. After a few hellish days.

Sunday dinner never happened. Emelie senpai had to cancel due to an extremely sudden cold that kind of knocked her out. So I spent the rest of my Sunday feeling lonely. :/

Monday was November 2nd, which also meant that it was my friends Cicci's birthday! We had our usual seminar between 9am and 11am. During the break in the middle of it Fluff stands up and announces to everyone that it's her birthday (the Grammar seminar on Monday morning is the only seminar we have with all 80 students at once, except that only about half of that show up). So together we all sing Happy Birthday while Cicci is glowing red and hiding under the desk xD (Unfortunately my birthday is on a Monday too, so I can be pretty sure of a reprise there). After the seminar we went out to have lunch; I, Cicci, Fluff, Eduardo and Mia. We went to a new sushi place we just discovered, called Zen, and they turned out to have the best sushi I've tried in Lund yet! And possibly the cheapest? 15 pieces for 100 if you're staying. After sushi I, Cicci and Fluff went to an ice cream bar called Per Tutti. The ice creams were awesome xD

Per Tutti's ice creams. From L to R: mine, Cicci's and Fluff's.

Tuesday I had the first lesson 9am-12 with Love and Fluff. Love had to leave before the lesson ended because he got some allergic reaction to something. After class Fluff and I went and bought some donuts and such and then went home to Love, where we were going to study. We did study a bit and then we ended up in front of YouTube, Star Gate Universe etc. I had a driving lesson at 4pm and after that I went home, but safe and sound at home I started to get kind of depressed without a reason and since Love was my currently closest friend online on msn (easiest access) I started pouring it all out over him (turned out Fluff was still there with him). Somehow I ended up going back to Lund to hang out with them and stay the night. Randomly. :)

Wednesday started out with Love and I skipping class and the Fluff skipping class after us. Just didn't have the energy to turn up after we had gone to sleep around 4am. ^^; We went down to the corner and ordered pizza for brunch and then we went back to Love's flat. Around 3pm Fluff suddenly got an extreme headache and dizzyness. He lay down on Love's bed and his feet went numb for a minute. He also got really cold. So we decided to call the illness-center (or whatever it's called. It's the place to call when you don't know what's wrong and you want to know if it's serious). Fluff talked to them himself and it came down to this: he was going to the emergency ward at the hospital and he should decide for himself if he could get there on his own or if he should call an ambulance. When he got up he started to get nauseous and was still dizzy and cold so we called an ambulance and they came and picked him up. I was worried sick, I had a driving lesson which Fluff insisted on me going to instead of accompanying him so I did, but I couldn't drive well cause I was so worried. After the driving lesson I went back to Love's. We had a lesson which we didn't go to cause we waited for Fluff to call. I called my parents to tell them that I would stay another night and to tell them what had happened. Around 10.30pm we finally got hold on him via the hospital's phone. He had been through several tests, head scan and he hadn't had access to a phone and he wasn't allowed to have his mobile on. He was going to stay the night and in the morning the would do a spinal tap on him. He called later and said that the head scan hadn't showed anything. That got me a little less worried.

Today after the morning's driving lesson (seems like I'm driving all the time nowadays) I stayed at Love's watching more films like we had done the night before and just hung out casually. Around noon the doorbell rang and there was Fluff, out of the hospital. They had decided not to do the spinal tap after all, since all his symptoms had been gone by the morning. The relief was incredible. After that I was kind of stuck on him, but he didn't mind since he was somewhat reluctant to let go of me too.

So now I'm finally home. Tomorrow will be a short trip to Lund for school and then back home. The weekend I will spend at home (if the plans aren't changed).

And I got the result of the midterm exams; 97% on average. Yay me :P

Tsukurimashou

Halloween again. Tomorrow I really, really don't want to be home. It's the least fun night of the year to be at home at. All those neighbourhood children going for trick or treat. Drives me crazy. But I have Sunday to look forward to. Then I'm going home to Emelie senpai, we're gonna have a Sunday dinner with a Halloween touch, so everyone's gonna get dressed out or cosplay. Gonna be awesome. Just have to remember my camera.

Last weekend was cosy. Spent it at Fluff's place. As he lives on the countryside with no means of going anywhere during the weekends without a car (none of us can drive and none of us has a car) we just had to stay put. This ended in a lot of TV, films and geekyness. And cosiness ofc. But spending four days with him was so worth it. :)

Yesterday I spent at Love's place. After my driving lesson at noon I went over to his place to study with him as we did on Wednesday too. After a while Fluff came by and it ended in another YouTube raid as usually. As the evening drew closer Fluff disappeared with one of his friends to go to a game center. Somehow I ended up teaching Love about Hello! Project and Morning Musume. Geekyness exploding! xD It also ended with both of us having this song on our brains and singing it all the time:

Now everything is also set for the time when I come back from Japan. I can go back to studying Japanese with all my friends as if nothing happened :) Nemas problemas!

I don't want to go home right now

That's it. That's my life nowadays. Suddenly I'm surrounded by all those people who are like me and I can hang out with them so casually that I actually feel miserable just going home for the night. I don't want to go home. I don't want to be on my own. I want to be surrounded by "my" people, I want to have fun and I want to explore more geeky stuff.

On Thursday after driving school I met up with Fluff and after a walk around town we went to his friend's Anton's flat (to which he has the spare key). Anton went to work and after a while Fluff left too to hold the children session in aikido, so I was left to entertain myself in his flat. (He owns three friggin' guitars!) So I played some guitar and watched TV until Fluff returned with dinner :)

Friday was mid-term exams and I think it went well. I think I nailed this one too ;) After the exams were over some of us went to a hamburger restaurant called Viggo. We went there after last exam too so this might be the beginning of a tradition ;) After lunch Fluff, I and Emelie senpai hung around in town and I felt kind of sad going home after such a fabulous day.

This Sunday we (some second-years (senpai), some Japanese exchange students and out of the blue I, Fluff and Anton) went to Laserdome in Malmö. It's a place where you run around in a vest with lights on and with a laser gun. The room is totally dark with UV-lights so everything white glows xD There are two forts and lots of walls; the whole room is a labyrinth! However you can play either in teams or all against all. We divided into two teams; red and green, and started playing. Like always I didn't do very well, but I had a great time. After that we were all really thirsty and hungry so we decided to go out to eat. The Japanese and most senpai ended up at Boomers, a bar/restaurant. I, Fluff, Anton and Emelie senpai didn't want to go in there since they only had drinks which you couldn't drink if thirsty ;) So we ended up going to Burger King. Anton works at Burger King in Lund and he got staff discount :) A large coke and a double cheeseburger :D Then we wanted to continue the night so we took the train to Lund (ran into a teacher (sensei) on the train), at Anton's flat we ended up playing Super Mario Smash Bros Brawl on Wii and later Soul Calibur II also on Wii. If it wasn't for the fact that I didn't have my contacts stuff and school books with me I would've stayed the night, but as it were I had to take the bus home and ended up going to bed at 0.30am. ^^;

Yesterday I only had one lesson; at 9am. I was surprised to find that Fluff didn't turn up, despite the fact that he had spent the night at Anton's flat. So after class I called him to find out he had awoken with a fever and had decided to sleep until he had his afternoon class. Which I told him was cancelled since the teacher was sick. I went by Anton's flat and after fussing over him he taught me to play som World of Warcraft. It was OK, but hey, there are better games. Really. When Anton came home from work we played some Guitar Hero on Wii and when our fingers were dead we started watching 2½ Men on TV instead.

All on all every day is great. Somehow I find myself hanging out with guys all the time, but what does that matter? :)

This weekend I'm invited over to Fluff's. His parents and sister are out of "town" (countryside) and he has the house all on his own, which also means he's stuck there with cat duties. So the weekend also looks bright :)

Cold

Let's settle this once and for all! Now I have read several blog posts by my friends in which they complain about the cold. Cold is great! Better than heat which in the end makes you lying gasping for air in the shade. Cold... It makes the world feel clean and clear, the air is high and it's easy to breathe. No pressure from heat or thunder anywhere.

Do you forget, each year, about the cosy sound and feeling of frost under your shoes while you walk through frozen grass? Do you forget, each year, about the joy snow brings? About Christmas and New Years which fills the air with expectations and happiness. Suddenly everyone are nice to everyone. Because it's that time of the year.

Do you forget, each year, that when you're out your ears, cheeks, fingers, nose and feet turn cold and sometimes even hurt, but then there's the cosy feeling of returning indoors and feel the warmth flow back into those bodyparts. The relaxing feeling of crawling up in the sofa under a blanket with a mug of hot chocolate and watching Love actually for the umpth time.

Each weekend you can stay in bed for longer than necessary because it's so cosy and comforting and relaxing to just lie there, stay there between the sheets. And there's no one to complain if you spend an entire day indoors.

And with cold also comes the clear skies during nighttime, which means that you can just look up and see amazing constellations. Even if you have to get up early to get to work or school, cold is great, because unlike heat it makes you wake up. During that short walk to the car or the bus your mind goes from morning haze to awake in an incredible short amount of time.

Sure the darkness comes earlier and faster, but with darkness comes the moon and the stars. Bad weather usually means rain, but what can be more relaxing than sitting indoors with a cup of tea and a nice book while the rain falls on your windows? And if you have to go out and get wet, once again is there something more cosy and comforting than coming back indoors, get changed and get dry under a blanket with a cup of tea or a mug of chocolate?

Who doesn't feel like a child when snow starts to fall? I know I do. Only last year I was playing in the snow like I was 8 and not 18. So yes, this time of year is magical.

There's no need to complain. Just enjoy it!